lila pahamthe grief of the lost.somehow, i am good at being in the midst of the lost / crowded in a room where i do not know anyone all / across loud smiles, eyes shining…3 min read·Aug 5, 2023----
lila pahamocean tidein the wake of loss, the world that claims me is pitifully strange, where all beautiful sense of evolution is shunned, derange like an…2 min read·Mar 12, 2023----
lila pahamdont lie to meif i wrote about my feelings all the time, i'd feel unsure about it. would i be perceived as honest? or would it be perceived as a liar's…3 min read·Mar 8, 2023----
lila pahamdo i even want to know?lately, i feel like i don’t feel real. as though, i am just some sort illusion that found itself upon the dirt of earth’s soil — unable to…4 min read·Jan 21, 2023----
lila pahamstill lifethere was a time when i thought my life was forever to be still at sixteen. such a young age where my mind was still underdeveloped and…4 min read·Dec 2, 2022----
lila pahamReflectionThis became what life to her was. Vague understandings of a life she had forgotten, one that only mirrored the smoke that evoked the one…10 min read·Sep 24, 2022----
lila pahamthe tale of the nightingaleVOLUPTA WAS SURE THAT SHE DOES NOT KNOW WHAT IT TRULY FEELS LIKE TO LOVE. She was sure that she had not lacked love in all her life…20 min read·Aug 7, 2022----
lila pahamunlovable friendi had accepted myself as your most unlovable friend. no, it was not your fault nor is it mine. but rather, there is a blossoming spotlight…5 min read·Aug 7, 2022----
lila pahami still wonder when the world had started to consider me a monster.and yet you called me monster. for each word of defiance against your rule, i shudder at the false tears that touch your cheeks. for each…4 min read·Jun 28, 2022----